You're Not There

I only got you in my stories
And you know I tell them right
I remember you and I, when I'm awake at night
So give it up for fallen glory
I never got to say goodbye
I wish I could ask for just a bit more time

Every step I take, you used to lead the way
Now I'm terrified to face it on my own

You're not there
To celebrate the man that you made
You're not there
To share in my success and mistakes
Is it fair?
You'll never know the person I'll be
You're not there
With me

Though I know that you're not there
I still write you all these songs
It's like you got the right to know what's going on
As I struggle to remember how you used to look and sound
At times I still think I can spot you in the crowd

Every step I take, you used to lead the way
And now I'm terrified to face it on my own

You're not there
To celebrate the man that you made
You're not there
To share in my success and mistakes
Is it fair?
You'll never know the person I'll be
You're not there
With me

Time can heal your wounds if you're strong and standing tall
I've been doing all of that, it didn't help at all
They say, "You'll grow older, and it'll get better still."
Yes, I will, but no, it won't
They don't get it, 'cause

You're not there
To celebrate the man that you made
You're not there
To share in my success and mistakes
Is it fair?
You'll never know the person I'll be
You're not there
With me

*LYRICS
:)

Online Business

I joined an online business through Facebook. I didn't expect that I must sell that product through online. They said that we can make RM1k each month by using our personal Facebook. So, I begin to try out their tips during my semester break. Their tips are you have updated your status at least 3 times per day on your personal Facebook. I posted in one month and there is only 2 customer in my friend list are interested about my product. The rest customer I get is from 'page' and 'buy and sell group'. I guess it was the most embarrassing thing that I ever did because I didn't used to tell about myself everyday in public. I do gained some money tho, and manage to become top seller in the team. Wahh!!

I notice that I begin not to read Quran 9-15 page per day like I used to read every day. My Quran reading is decreased to 2 page per day or not reading Quran at all. When my customer PM me, I skip my Quran reading just to gain more customer. I also begin to left my solat sunat Hajat and Tahajud and only did solat sunat Dhuha everyday. I feel regret with my action during this semester break. My distance with Allah become further, but my distance with humans on Facebook become closer. The good things is I begin to gain more friend and made an engagement with my old friends. The bad things is I begin to distance myself with Allah. So, before it's too late, I decided to stop with that routine.

Yup. I'll STOP

The conclusion is, my ambition is I don't want to be an online business woman. I don't want to self working with unbalance income. There's a lot of dramas in online business. At least I know the art in online business and they (seller) can't lie to me no more. At this moment, I will still sell that product but in slow motion mode. Hehehe.

My ambition is I want to further my studies, experience as engineer and becoming a lecture. And that's final.

~out, fyp