06 November 2017

Bachelor's Degree Electronic Engineering ✅



I never thought I would have a picture of my convocation. Before the convocation, I was so lazy and unexcited to go. Thanks to Kakyong who always secretly be my photographer and force me to be her model. Every photo there's Kakyong behind the camera. Hehe. Back then, I was non-social network person and non-taking picture person. I never online to view what other people update to heal myself. I let so many picture of me faded to keep me moving on in my life. Without noticing, it been almost more than 4 years I've been gone. I was gone neither online nor offline. I thought I just want to be gone in this world forever. I felt that I've lost everything. Sometimes I feel unwanted in this world so I decided to backing off. But I believe Allah have better plan for me. Since my death not coming yet, my journey didn't end here. Some of my friends are searching for me and personally request a picture of me. And that's was my first time ever I've send my picture online. My mother used to say "Ingat senang ke nak nampak Nana muncul dalam gambar?".


At one instant, one day, I don't know why I decided to join online business in fact I hate all social network and holding a gadget. Being expose in online world was really not my thing. I just love to be expose to real world more. But it just happen. Well, everything happens for some reason. At least, I know the art in marketing and they can't lie to me no more. 


Sorry, if I'm not beautiful anymore.


Life is simple, keep a person who keep you, leave a person who leave you.


Forgive and forget. Make more mistakes and learn.


Picture lied, word don't.


It's just happened once in a life time. 


Dunia hanyalah setitis air laut yang melekat di jarinya, selebihnya adalah akhirat.








Currently undergoing a digital detox. I won't be available after this. :p


More photo, coming soon....
~Out, busy. 

Look up

I have 422 friends, yet I am lonely.
I speak to all of them everyday, yet none of them really know me.
The problem I have sits in the spaces between,
looking into their eyes, or at a name on a screen.
I took a step back, and opened my eyes,
I looked around, and then realised
that this media we call social, is anything but
when we open our computers, and it’s our doors we shut.
All this technology we have, it’s just an illusion,
of community, companionship, a sense of inclusion
yet when you step away from this device of delusion,
you awaken to see, a world of confusion.
A world where we’re slaves to the technology we mastered,
where our information gets sold by some rich greedy bastard.
A world of self-interest, self-image, self-promotion,
where we share all our best bits, but leave out the emotion.
We are at our most happy with an experience we share,
but is it the same if no one is there.
Be there for you friends, and they’ll be there too,
but no one will be, if a group message will do.
We edit and exaggerate, we crave adulation,
we pretend we don’t notice the social isolation.
We put our words into order, until our lives are glistening,
we don’t even know if anyone is listening.
Being alone isn’t the problem, let me just emphasize,
that if you read a book, paint a picture, or do some exercise,
you are being productive, and present, not reserved or recluse,
you’re being awake and attentive, and putting your time to good use.
So when you’re in public, and you start to feel alone,
put your hands behind your head, and step away from the phone.
You don’t need to stare at your menu, or at your contact list,
just talk to one another, and learn to co-exist.
I can’t stand to hear the silence, of a busy commuter train,
when no one wants to talk through the fear of looking insane.
We’re becoming unsocial, it no longer satisfies
to engage with one another, and look into someone’s eyes.
We’re surrounded by children, who since they were born,
watch us living like robots, and think it’s the norm.
It’s not very likely you will make world’s greatest dad,
if you cant entertain a child without a using an iPad.
When I was a child, I would never be home,
I’d be out with my friends, on our bikes we would roam.
We’d ware holes in our trainers, and graze up our knees;
we’d build our own clubhouse, high up in the trees.
Now the parks are so quiet, it gives me a chill
to see no children outside and the swings hanging still.
There’s no skipping or hopscotch, no church and no steeple,
we’re a generation of idiots, smart phones and dumb people.
So look up from your phone, shut down that display,
take in your surroundings, and make the most of today.
Just one real connection is all it can take,
to show you the difference that being there can make.
Be there in the moment, when she gives you the look,
that you remember forever, as when love overtook.
The time you first hold her hand, or first kiss her lips,
the time you first disagree, but still love her to bits.
The time you don’t need to tell hundreds, about what you’ve just done,
because you want to share the moment, with just this one.
The time you sell your computer, so you can buy a ring,
for the girl of your dreams, who is now the real thing.
The time you want to start a family, and the moment when,
you first hold your baby girl, and get to fall in love again.
The time she keeps you up at night, and all you want is rest,
and the time you wipe away the tears, as your baby flees the nest.
The time your little girl returns, with a boy for you to hold,
and the day he calls you granddad, and makes you feel real old
The time you take in all you’ve made, just by giving life attention,
and how your glad you didn’t waste it, by looking down at some invention.
The time you hold your wife’s hand, and sit down beside her bed
you tell her that you love her, and lay a kiss upon her head.
She then whispers to you quietly, as her heart gives a final beat,
that she’s lucky she got stopped, by that lost boy in the street.
But none of these times ever happened, you never had any of this,
When you’re too busy looking down, you don’t see the chances you miss.
So look up from your phone, shut down those displays,
we have a finite existence, a set number of days.
Why waste all our time getting caught in the net,
as when the end comes, nothing’s worse than regret.
I am guilty too, of being part of this machine,
this digital world, where we are heard but not seen.
Where we type and don’t talk, where we read as we chat,
where we spend hours together, without making eye contact.
Don’t give in to a life where you follow the hype,
give people your love, don’t give them your like.
Disconnect from the need to be heard and defined
Go out into the world, leave distractions behind.
Look up from your phone, shut down that display,
stop watching this video, live life the real way.
-Gary Turk

18 October 2017

Underweight


Currently I'm loosing my weight due to some crisis I'm facing. What crisis? It's secret. Many people tend to ask me how did I manage to keep my weight maintain since high school? Well, it requires long term discipline to achieve it. When I was in high school, I always feel ugly and miserable. I have no friends, no best friends, and no boyfriends. No girlfriends really want to hang out with me. So, to keep myself happy about myself, everyday I always push myself forward with a healthy habits ritual to be a better person and believe that "one day I'll be a beautiful butterfly". Somehow I'm not that butterfly yet. One day, maybe? In my dream. :')

I'm currently facing something I'm afraid off. While furthering studies, I'm doing some other multiple jobs. What jobs? It's secret. While I'm doing one of the job it was unexpectedly me to meet someone I knew long time ago. It is my housemate and my childhood friend. About my housemate, we are living in the same house, but don't know each other hometown. Haha. Kids these days don't know how to socialize face to face.

I'm currently moving forward to be better of me and hopefully I found what I'm searching for.

Look ma, I have a friend.

09 October 2017

Bestfriend


Hey, I just meet you. And this is craaaazy. Named is Black (Hitam). Because he is black. So, how I meet this cat? Its all started before I came home back from Johor by bus which is fasting month. I don't really like cat actually. I called them a virus because they didn't take a bath or wash their poop and I don't like the sound of meowing. I only love rabbit, not cat, eeewww. Okay, I know I have an annoying thought sometimes. Haha. But where is my rabbit? My mother sold them because we are moving to a new house. Before this, I don't even want to hold a cat except for this one. This cat's family member just died because of worm disease and his father just went missing after his mother giving birth. I felt so pity to see of his loss. He has nobody to be taking care of except me. And I have nobody to befriended except him. Haha. So, we are in the equal situation so why don't we be just friend?

People change :3

11 September 2017

Registration


I'm kinda lost here,
breathless.
scared,
hungry,
tired,
dying,
sad,
broken heart.
In the dark, 
I watch everyone disappear.
And I've been smiling like this for days.
:)

Dear Wana,
promise me you'll make it though this.
Decide what's wrong,
decide what's right,
decide this one in the light where I feel alive.

Out, busy~

Actually, I can.

24 August 2017

23rd


We were about to send Atok back to her hometown. It turns out, the surrounding turns dark. Its suddenly black out. I was about to turn off my phone and leave it in my room. I calmly walk in the dark to get my phone back to make it as a torch light. My family keeps yelling at my name because Atok might be late for her bus. I walk past the living room and suddenly they singing happy birthday to me. I was smiling and speechless. I realize that it's been a long time they didn't celebrate my birthday because I've been far away from my family when it is my birthday. Well, thanks for the treat in my 23rd. I never really display my birth date via social network when I was adult because I want to see who is my real friend. I used to wish everyone's birthday, but it turns out, nobody wishing me back. Hahaha. Never mind. This year, I receive an unexpected wished from friend after an update through the social network. They told me that I've been gone away too long and they missed me?


"Dear Nana, change is good."

19 August 2017

A visit from US family member

Umi Cha and Uncle Shafiq from US was here came to visit us. Uncle Shafiq went to Starbuck coffee in Taiping Central to get his coffee, suddenly the staff over there give him free drinks. And he gave that drink to me. This is my first time ever drank this expensive drink.


Uncle Shafiq used to call me "Miss 300" because when I was working in Johor, I keep telling him, my salary was RM300 per month, not RM300 per day. He keeps ignoring what I said and telling me that I was rich. Hahaha. We have a very long talk about DNA and anti-aging thing.



11 August 2017

Different

I know what it's like to feel.....different.
I'm not different.
Am I?

23 July 2017

Happy Eid 2017

Sibling group photo 
This year, we didn't have a proper family group photo as always since not all of us came in one time.

1 Syawal - Busy.

2 Syawal - Busy.

3 Syawal - I forgot what happen.

4 Syawal - I forgot.

5 Syawal - I forgot.

6 Syawal - Emm.

7 Syawal -

8 Syawal -

9 Syawal -

10 Syawal - Fasting. Drive Atok to Hospital Sultanah Aminah in JB.

11 Syawal - Fasting. Drive Atok, take the curtain from the tailor, send a fabric to a cloth tailor, went to Eco RM2 to buy a garden tent, fill in RM30 oil at Petron, went to the wholesale shop to buy boxes of water and biscuits, went to wedding shop to buy flowers plastic. At night, we car pool with Mak Ani to 3 houses.

12 Syawal - Fasting. Drive Atok and Tok Anum to Bank Islam. Send Tok Anum back to her home. Went to Maybank. Went to DIY. Went to food stall for Tok Jah food. Went to watch shop. Went to the pet shop. Went back home. Fall asleep.

13 Syawal -

14 Syawal - Went to 2 wedding invitation. Get 1 angpow.

15 Syawal - Went to 5 houses for marhaban. I get 3 angpow.

16 Syawal - In the morning, we went to Kedai Tok Jai to take roti arab that atok ordered. Then we went to frozen shop to buy plastic. It was marhaban at Atok's house. We manage to clean all the mess by a strange man helping hand who help us washing the dishes.

17 Syawal - Fasting. Went to kedai nasi ayam to buy 6 nasi ayam.

18 Syawal -

19 Syawal -

20 Syawal -

21 Syawal -

22 Syawal -

23 Syawal - Fasting

24 Syawal - Fasting

25 Syawal - Fasting

26 Syawal -

27 Syawal -

28 Syawal -

29 Syawal -

30 Syawal -

*will continue update soon

05 July 2017

But why?

Nobody knows me I'm cold.
Walk down this road all alone .
It's no one's fault but my own.
It's the path I've chosen to go.
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever so.
Don't ask me why I have no love. 

I wonder why I care?
I wonder why I couldn't forget?
I wonder why I changed? 
I wonder who you are?
I shouldn't know you.
It's really damn weird. 
It haven't start yet, but you are my biggest mistake.
This fairy tale should end.
The ending is the starting line.
Remember, whoever I need is Allah.
Stay closer to Quran.
Insyaallah, I'll be fine. 

The key was tossed away.
The door closed until my wishes came true.

Allah closes Doors that no Man
can Open and opens Doors that
no Man can Close. May he open
all the Doors you require to live
your life to the full....
Sharing the goodness and love that
is in your heart, will always leave you
When Allah is accepting Duas,may
yours be one of them. When he is
forgiving people, may you be one of
them. When you meet your friends
and family in heaven, may I be one
of them...
Allah is the reason for the joy we share,
the love we give and the hope that fills
our heart with peace. I wish you
Extravagant love and abundant joy...
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...