18 October 2017


Currently I'm loosing my weight due to some crisis I'm facing. What crisis? It's secret. Many people tend to ask me how did I manage to keep my weight maintain since high school? Well, it requires long term discipline to achieve it. When I was in high school, I always feel ugly and miserable. I have no friends, no best friends, and no boyfriends. No girlfriends really want to hang out with me. So, to keep myself happy about myself, everyday I always push myself forward with a healthy habits ritual to be a better person and believe that "one day I'll be a beautiful butterfly". Somehow I'm not that butterfly yet. One day, maybe? In my dream. :')

I'm currently facing something I'm afraid off. While furthering studies, I'm doing some other multiple jobs. What jobs? It's secret. While I'm doing one of the job it was unexpectedly me to meet someone I knew long time ago. It is my housemate and my childhood friend. About my housemate, we are living in the same house, but don't know each other hometown. Haha. Kids these days don't know how to socialize face to face.

I'm currently moving forward to be better of me and hopefully I found what I'm searching for.

Look ma, I have a friend.

24 August 2017


We were about to send Atok back to her hometown. It turns out, the surrounding turns dark. Its suddenly black out. I was about to turn off my phone and leave it in my room. I calmly walk in the dark to get my phone back to make it as a torch light. My family keeps yelling at my name because Atok might be late for her bus. I walk past the living room and suddenly they singing happy birthday to me. I was smiling and speechless. I realize that it's been a long time they didn't celebrate my birthday because I've been far away from my family when it is my birthday. Well, thanks for the treat in my 23rd. I never really display my birth date via social network when I was adult because I want to see who is my real friend. I used to wish everyone's birthday, but it turns out, nobody wishing me back. Hahaha. Never mind. This year, I receive an unexpected wished from friend after an update through the social network. They told me that I've been gone away too long and they missed me?

"Dear Nana, change is good."

19 August 2017

A visit from US family member

Umi Cha and Uncle Shafiq from US was here came to visit us. Uncle Shafiq went to Starbuck coffee in Taiping Central to get his coffee, suddenly the staff over there give him free drinks. And he gave that drink to me. This is my first time ever drank this expensive drink.

Uncle Shafiq used to call me "Miss 300" because when I was working in Johor, I keep telling him, my salary was RM300 per month, not RM300 per day. He keeps ignoring what I said and telling me that I was rich. Hahaha. We have a very long talk about DNA and anti-aging thing.

11 August 2017


I know what it's like to feel.....different.
I'm not different.
Am I?

23 July 2017

Happy Eid 2017

Sibling group photo 
This year, we didn't have a proper family group photo as always since not all of us came in one time.

1 Syawal - Busy.

2 Syawal - Busy.

3 Syawal - I forgot what happen.

4 Syawal - I forgot.

5 Syawal - I forgot.

6 Syawal - Emm.

7 Syawal -

8 Syawal -

9 Syawal -

10 Syawal - Fasting. Drive Atok to Hospital Sultanah Aminah in JB.

11 Syawal - Fasting. Drive Atok, take the curtain from the tailor, send a fabric to a cloth tailor, went to Eco RM2 to buy a garden tent, fill in RM30 oil at Petron, went to the wholesale shop to buy boxes of water and biscuits, went to wedding shop to buy flowers plastic. At night, we car pool with Mak Ani to 3 houses.

12 Syawal - Fasting. Drive Atok and Tok Anum to Bank Islam. Send Tok Anum back to her home. Went to Maybank. Went to DIY. Went to food stall for Tok Jah food. Went to watch shop. Went to the pet shop. Went back home. Fall asleep.

13 Syawal -

14 Syawal - Went to 2 wedding invitation. Get 1 angpow.

15 Syawal - Went to 5 houses for marhaban. I get 3 angpow.

16 Syawal - In the morning, we went to Kedai Tok Jai to take roti arab that atok ordered. Then we went to frozen shop to buy plastic. It was marhaban at Atok's house. We manage to clean all the mess by a strange man helping hand who help us washing the dishes.

17 Syawal - Fasting. Went to kedai nasi ayam to buy 6 nasi ayam.

18 Syawal -

19 Syawal -

20 Syawal -

21 Syawal -

22 Syawal -

23 Syawal - Fasting

24 Syawal - Fasting

25 Syawal - Fasting

26 Syawal -

27 Syawal -

28 Syawal -

29 Syawal -

30 Syawal -

*will continue update soon

05 July 2017

But why?

Nobody knows me I'm cold.
Walk down this road all alone .
It's no one's fault but my own.
It's the path I've chosen to go.
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever so.
Don't ask me why I have no love. 

I wonder why I care?
I wonder why I couldn't forget?
I wonder why I changed? 
I wonder who you are?
I shouldn't know you.
It's really damn weird. 
It haven't start yet, but you are my biggest mistake.
This fairy tale should end.
The ending is the starting line.
Remember, whoever I need is Allah.
Stay closer to Quran.
Insyaallah, I'll be fine. 

The key was tossed away.
The door closed until my wishes came true.

Allah closes Doors that no Man
can Open and opens Doors that
no Man can Close. May he open
all the Doors you require to live
your life to the full....
Sharing the goodness and love that
is in your heart, will always leave you
When Allah is accepting Duas,may
yours be one of them. When he is
forgiving people, may you be one of
them. When you meet your friends
and family in heaven, may I be one
of them...
Allah is the reason for the joy we share,
the love we give and the hope that fills
our heart with peace. I wish you
Extravagant love and abundant joy...

15 June 2017

Open fasting with people for the first time.

Hye there, I know the title seem so anti-social. I'm living out here alone, so there is less opportunity for me to spend my time dining out with friends. Who the fish want to dining out with me? *just kidding. In this semester I was entirely busy to catching up my studies and facing some money crisis. That fishing internet plan always accidentally eating my quota through my bank account. To make long story short, one fine day, the day I finally finished my fyp correction, Kak Miza invited me to open fasting with her.

27 May 2017

Took my heart

I found happiness.

"Just Listen to Quran. Keep Listening to it. Day after Day. InshaAllah, your heart will soften, your eyes would get wet, your mind would be at peace and you would be able to worship Allah better and better with each passing day."

Personal Experience
 The reason behind writing this article is my own personal experience with the Holy Quran. I was with the Holy Quran all the time; even while I am sleeping I used to leave the radio on with reciting the Holy Quran. As a matter of fact, I had no idea at that time about the technique of learning during sleep!!!
After a few months, I noticed great changes inside me. I felt that each one of my brain cells is vibrating and reacting with the voice of the Holy Quran recitation I was listening to. I was memorizing the Holy Quran using the technique of listening and repeating the chapter many times. Therefore, I found that the verses of the Holy Quran were getting easily into my memory.
Twenty years ago I told one of my friends that listening to the Holy Quran recitation reprogrammed the brain cells completely! But a few days ago I was really surprised to read about the experiments of the scientists in treating some of the incurable diseases using the sound waves of music. Some of the researchers such as the American scientist Annie Williams ,who is using the music therapy technique, has come out with important results. Those results, however, was limited until now because of the inability of the music to create the required effects on the cells. Nevertheless, she asserts that she has come up with unbelievable results in treating the Colon Cancer and the Brain Tumor and other diseases. She also states that the sense of creativity has been increased in each one of the patients who has listened to the recorded music.
Consequently , I'd like here to mention to my dear readers the results I got from the long period of listening to the recitation of the Holy Quran: I feel now that I have become stronger than before, that the immunity of my body has increased ,and my character has become better ,especially in dealing with people. The Holy Quran has also awakened the sense of creativity inside me and all these articles I wrote in a short period were the result of reading and listening to the Holy Quran constantly .
I can say , my dear reader, that constant listening to the Holy Quran increases the creativity in the human being and this is what happened to me. I still remember that before reading and memorizing the Holy Quran I was unable to write a single sentence correctly , but now I am able to write a scientific research paper in a day or a couple of days.
So we can see that listening to the Holy Quran does not only help in healing illnesses, but also contributes to developing the human personality and the communication skills together with the ability of creativity and coming up with new ideas. Therefore, you, dear reader, can try this and definitely will get fantastic results.

What is the best medicine?
The best medicine to cure all illnesses is the Holy Quran. This is a result of a long time experience in treating people. Many cases that had incurable illnesses recovered after exposing them to the recitation of Holy Quran. That is because of the ability of Holy Quran in rebalancing the brain cells and increasing their capability in performing well.
Each cell has a vibrating system that Allah has created to do its job and those cells do not understand the speech language but they deals with frequencies and vibrations like those in the mobile phones which receive electromagnetic waves and in turn send other waves. Therefore, we can say, metaphorically, that in each cell there is a very complex mobile phone. And you can imagine thousand billions of cells in your brain vibrating rhythmically in a way that no human being can understand , realize or imitate and if any cell was being in disorder , all the body would be in a disorder. So Holy Quran is a blessing that urges us to thank Allah . But do we really appreciate such a blessing??

The Verses of Holy Quran Heal
 According to the recent discoveries, scientists say that any illness must make a change in reprogramming the cells and each cell works according to a certain program from birth to death. Therefore, any physical or psychological disorder causes a confusion in the vibration system of the cell which makes a disorder in the cellular program. So we need to restore and correct this program in order to heal this disorder.
During my meditation with the Holy Quran , I found that there is a very precise digital system in each verse. Those verses, however, do not only carry the language of numbers but also carry some thing like what we call "data" or "programs" that can deal with the cells. Therefore, we can say that those verses carry the language of those cells!!!!
The reader may think this unscientific theory, but I assure you that I found a lot of verses in the Quran confirming that the Holy Quran verses carry a lot of data exactly like those normal radio waves used in carrying information, music , sounds and so on.
Allah says in His Holy book
Had it been possible for a Lecture to cause the mountains to move , or the earth to be torn asunder , or the dead to speak , this Quran would have done so . Nay , but Allah ' s is the whole command .(Ra'd:13:31)
If we deeply analyze this verse we, we can come up with this question: How can the Holy Quran cause the mountain to move, or the earth to be torn or the dead to speak?? The answer is through the data that only dead people can understand.
As the mountains are concerned, it is known that the earth layers move slowly nearly few centimeter a year, driving the mountains to move, too. This movement is resulted from thermal waves produced from the melting area under the crust. Therefore, we can say that the Quran contains data that can deal with these thermal waves causing layers to stir and move faster that makes cracks and earthquakes; and cuts the crust into many small pieces. This great power is put in the Holy Quran, but we are not allowed to reach it . Instead ,we have been told about this great power to realize how great is this Holy Book. Now, Can this Holy Book which has this advantage of this great power heal weak creatures like human beings???
When Allah tells us that this Holy Quran is a" healing", this means that it carries data and programs sufficient to heal the damaged cells in the body and cures what the doctors was incapable of.

The amazing effect resulting from Listening to Quran
 The continuous listening to the recitation of Holy Quran gives you the following real fruitful results:
-                      increase the immunity of the body
-                      enhance the creativity sense
-                      improve the concentration ability
-                      heal the chronic and incurable illnesses
-                      change the behavior and enable people to communicate better and gain trust
-                      create inner peace and heal the neural tensions
-                      heal nervousness, irritation and precipitation
-                      improve the ability of taking right decisions
-                      decrease fear and hesitation
-                       improve and strengthen the personality
-                      heal the normal illnesses such as allergy, headache, flu ,etc.
-                      improve the speech ability
-                      protect from diseases such as cancer and so on
-                      Change some bad habits such as excessive eating and smoking

 Dear reader! those things I mentioned above are the results I myself got: I remember I was a heavy smoker and could not imagine giving up smoking ever, but after the continuous listening to the Holy Quran I found myself giving up smoking without any effort. I was really surprised "how my life changed and why? But after I read about the recent technique in healing ,one of which was the therapy by sounds and sound frequencies, I knew the secret of this great change in my life. It was listening to the recitation of the Holy Quran. What I simply did was only listening to the Holy Quran continuously.
To conclude, I 'd like to tell you a fact that I encountered and really tried: howsoever you spend your time in reading or listening to the Holy Quran, you will find that this time will not be wasted nor decreased . But you will notice that you will always have an extra time. You will find that the same works that takes sometimes days or hours to be done can be finished in few minutes only!!!
"O mankind! There has come unto you an exhortation from your Lord , a healing for that which is in the breasts ,and a guidance and a mercy for believers . Say : In the bounty of Allah and in His mercy : therein let them rejoice . It is better than what they hoard . (Jonah:10:57,58)"
By: Abduldaem Al-Kaheel

12 May 2017

Zina of Heart = Love

"A son of Adam's share of zina has been predestined for him, and he will inevitably fulfill that. Thus the eyes commit zina by looking, the ears commit zina by listening, the tongue commits zina by speaking, the mouth commits zina by kissing, the hands commits zina by acting (or touching) the foot commits zina by walking (toward the sin) the soul (or heart) wishes and desires (the sin) and the private part confirms all of that or desires it"

(Reported by al-Bukhari and Muslim).

I'm an adult now, it happens nowadays around my Muslim friends to think about someone who does not even their husband or wife. I may understand that they can't wait to end up their single life at this age, but in fact that it is a waste of time to think about someone who does not even think about you. 

Since I came from girls’ school, I always train myself to never let any strange male entering my brain. I didn't take part at all while all the girls are gossiping about their boyfriend. I may be a friend with some male from outside of my school, but I never let myself think about them. Sometimes, I even block all male contact numbers or social media to avoid myself from thinking about them. Bottom line, NO MALE IN MY HEAD? *except my family

I don't have any idea to type any longer.
Sorry for any grammar mistake.
I'm not perfect.
Out, busy.~

I'm exotic

Throwback moment when I'm in my working space. I'm so exited to do my work. While doing my work, I'm chitchatting with my workmate.

H: Kau mesti ramai orang mengoratkan?
Me: Takde lah. Takde sape nak ngorat pun.
H: Yeke?
Me: Betul la. Takde sape nak pandang pun. Pergi mana2 pun takde sapa kacau.
H: Hahaha. Aku rasa kau ni invisible la. Kau selalu duduk dekat rumah buat ape? Tengok tv tak? Cerita apa?
Me: Tak tengok TV pun. Tengok pun TV1.
H: Hah? TV1? Zaman sekarang mana ada orang tengok TV1 sangat. TV1 tengok ape? 
Me: Berita.
H: Hah? Berita? Kau tak tengok korea ke? Bukan perempuan suka tengok korea ke?
Me: Tak pun. Tak suka laa korea.
H: Kau ni exotic la. Kau tahu tak ape exotic?
Me: Tahu. Pelik la kan?
H: Hahaha. Kenapa? Ada orang panggil kau exotic ke?
Me: Haha. Takde la.
H: Habis selalu kau buat ape ha?
Me: ..........Bace.............quran...
H: Kau dah berapa kali katam quran.
Me: Ade laa..
H; Ade lagi rupanya orang macam kau. Lelaki suka perempuan baik. Serious aku cakap.
Me: Iyeke.

Meanwhile, in other situation....

H: Takkan takde sape nak ngorat kau? Nak kata tak cantik, cantik jugak. Takde ke yang macam tersenyum2 dekat kau?
Me: Hehe. Takde pun. Takde sape nak pandang.

Behind the scene, its was my experience facing the things I'm always hate and afraid off.

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