Having Annual Dinner (2nd year)

Still trying to manage my time to come to this event even tho, in my head, I still worried about my project. The reason why I went to this event is just to gain my relationship with my course mate and senior.  This event being held at PUMA hall. I came to this event with Nurin, Farihan and Nurina. I'm wearing simple dark color baju kurung. As always, I didn't capture myself a photo, selfie, or etc. I always let the photo fed away. But meanwhile, Nurin just capture my 1st selfie of the year :)

Kakyong and Hanafi, Nuar and Erina, wedding.

Can you spot my nose?

So, I've been asked to be a bridesmaid or maid of honor. I am a sister to the bride, so being a good bridesmaid should be easy. At that moment, I don't really know what's expected of me. I just get dressed, chin up, walk confidently and smile. I don't know where the confidence come from but I guess that was the best of me.

During this time, Kakyong and Hanafi in pink while Nuar and Erina in blue. The two brides drove themselves to the Chinese hall location from Atok's house. When the male bride wants to enter the hall, he begins arresting by others bridesmaid. He must give some money to the bridesmaid in order to get entered. Beside that, we also have fun with some activities' that being held. Last but no lest of the day, we dance poco-poco all together.

That was for Kakyong's side of the family. For Hanafi's side of family, I was being the bridesmaid or maid of honor too. The ceremony goes differently from Kakyong's side of family. When the bridal entourage arrive, we were greeted with drums beating. Then, they perform us Silat to celebrate the ceremony.

Before our family leave, Umi Mah says "Nana makin hari makin cantik, jangan kahwin 5-6 tahun lagi okay?". Then she hug and kiss me goodbye.

Bump into an old friend

Best friend reunion. This is my best friend. Say HI.

During this semester break, I bump into an old friend. Neither offline nor online. After a week of semester break, I posted a picture in my Convent WhatsApp group. I haven't posted anything since I'm disappearing myself in study week in USM. So, it turns out, my friend in the group planned to meet up at Aeon Taiping. Amalina, Fatin and me surrogate Izati's car to go to Aeon Taiping. Amira Famida came afterward, when we are having our lunch at the food court and about to finish it. Izati send me back to home around 5 o'clock.

At night, its been a long time since the last time I haven't logged into my Facebook account. So tonight I log in and I noticed that there was a new message in my Facebook. It was from my strange old friend. He asks my phone number and he text me that night. He told me about his problem. This was not the first time my friend search for me to cry out about their problem. It's okay, I don't mind. I'll be a good listener for everyone. Hehe.

He tells me about his sad story. How his life turns out. He keeps crying and stressed. He lives far away from my place. There's nothing else I can do to help him to overcome his problem, but just send him an advice text message. So, yeah, that's what a good friend suppose to do, right? I'm worried if he did something stupid like taking drugs, suicide, getting drunk and etc. Probably hope he won't do that.

Meanwhile, he reconnects me with my long lost old best friend in Convent, Liyana. Big thanks to him. Yeay!! May Allah bless you. He also sings me a song with his guitar, talk about his life, ask about my life, compliment me. I believe, all he did with me just to release his stress. We are nothing but just a friend. He is not my type of man anyway. So, no heart feeling to any 'pick up line' word he tries to say to me because I don't trust a man's word. I trust man action. Maybe he tries to test his power on me or something. HAHA. I don't really like talking about man. It's a waste of time. I will never allow any man entering my brain other than my family member. My heart was totally closed for strange men (but not with my family) until I get my first degree or master or PhD or old or die or what so ever.

"WHEN YOU STOP SEARCHING FOR A PRINCE 

AND MAKE ALLAH THE KING OF YOUR HEART, 

HE WILL HELP YOU COMPLETE YOUR 'fairytale'"

Lost but still searching

When finish eating at Deena Restaurant, while waiting Ayah to pay the bill.

Umi : Nana suka apa?
Me : Kuey teow kung fu. (hehe. I thought my mum asking me about food)
Umi : Tak la. Nana suka apa? Music? Guitar?
Me ; Tak la. Tak.
Umi : Habis main saje-saje eh. Tak suka? Habis ambil kelas guitar dekat U tu. Tak suka eh.
Me : Ha'a. Main je. Sebab bukan nak jadi artis pon.

My mum was not the only one who me ask this question. Some of them do ask me to perform a show. Yeah, I do have a passion for guitar actually. Last time, after I am finished SPM and Matriculation College, I do put an effort to learn music instrument. I self taught myself to play song by song and recorded it on video. But things change when one day I realize that music can't bring me no where. I mean, nether world, nor hereafter. So, it turns out, I'm switching my passion to Quran. Since that, I have begun to read and listen to Quran audio instead of entertaining music. Alhamdulillah, my time well spend. Day by day, I felt so calm, happy and cheerful.

Photo of WhatsApp message when Im disappearing during study and exam week.

The truth is, 

I'm really don't know who I am. 

I'm still lost out of no where. 

But yet, I still searching myself. 

I was busy looking forward until I forget my past. 

I forget who am I.

Seriously.

Who am I?

Unexpect

The day that I had to board a plane to go to Atok's house. Hanafi and Kakyong weeping their friend in engineering campus to help to send me to the airport. Their friend is a guy named Saidina, Master in Materials Engineering student. He lives in the same place as me in Desasiswa Utama. He brings along his roommate along with him named Shahrul, 4th year Degree in Electronic Engineering student.

The guy asking me lots of questions in the car. And I was suddenly continuously answering all his questions and telling about myself to them. In my whole life, I never had been talking to any guy this long and telling about myself. I don't know why I'm telling all about myself to them. They assume I am excellent student. No, I wasn't. I'm just a nerd. Saidina just keep comparing me with Shahrul.

Well, let's just think all of these conversations just to full fill time while on the way to the airport. Anyway, let's just forget about it. HAHA. They are nice guys, but unfortunately if not because of Hanafi, they wouldn't help me. Since they both are Kem Pimpin Siswa facilitator, I guess all of these conversations as one of their parts of social trained. So, no heart feeling.

Last but not least, when it's time to scan my stuff, I'm acting scared. HAHA. I'm just don't know where to go and a little bit of nerves. HAHA. It was damn awkward. I wanted to give him RM60 because Kakyong told me to do that, but he doesn't want that money!!!!

*Sorry for any grammar mistake.

My current place in 3rd semester

Daily breakfast. The oatmeal with beverage.

After 3 months of semester break, now its time for me to come back to USM. During this semester I didn't get any offer to stay either in Desasiswa Lembaran nor Desasiswa Jaya because of my MYCSD point. I just get an offer to stay in Desasiwa Utama which located outside of my campus. In that case, I have to bring along my dad's old car to help me reach the lecture class every day. Desasiswa Utama will have 7 numbers of floor. The 1st floor to 4rd floor are for male, the 5th and 6th floor is for female, and the 7th floor is for guest. My fee was RM450 for deposit and RM115 for monthly rent.

Picture of my bed at my friend rent house.

At first, I was staying at my friends rent house 2 days before making decision to really stay in Desasiswa Utama.  My friend, Huda, Yana, and Shahadah are so kind to help me to move all my stuff to Desasiswa Utama. It was my first time I have a friend who really helped me.

Picture of my bed at Desasiswa Utama

The problem that I was currently facing was when my occasion, having met at night. I feel so unsafe and insecure to come out at night alone since there are too many males around at night. So, I decided to not attend to the meeting, Another problem is I didn't have my laptop with me in the early week of the semester. It's kind of hard for me to do my presentation assignment. Luckily Dayah was able to help me by letting me borrow her laptop. Beside that, there are also one certain of the time when my car didn't function so well and Zafirah and Nurin was there helping me.

Since I was living outside the campus, I learn the meaning of why it is important to have friends when you are growing up. It is because when you are growing older, your parents can't always come to rescue you forever. All you have to do is learn to live in community.

20th

Dear Wana, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I hope you will success in your life. 

Sincerely, Wana :)

Eid Mubarak 2014

My raya celebration was just nice and simple. Many of our family member was not here. This might be the 1st blogpost that I was able to sum up everything because nothing much was happen.

1st Syawal - I wore blue stripe baju kurung with black wide shawl. We just stayed home and celebrate our Hari Raya at home.

2nd Syawal - I wore black loose dress. All of our relative was coming to Tok's house and eat.

3rd Syawal - I wore black dress. My sister fiancee family was coming. Umi Shida was coming. Going to JB and Raya at Ayah Ngah's house.

4rd Syawal - I wore blue jeans jubah. At night, went Raya at Umi Mah's house.

5th Syawal - Nothing much happen.

6th Syawal - My family was going home and left me and Kakyong behind with Tok.

7th Syawal - Fasting. Aunty Juita and Uncle Pacai came. Aunty Aida & family left and Uncle Adi & family left. Their ate chicken rice for lunch. In the everning, me, Kakyong, Tok and Aunty Juita went to Plaza Kota to search for green telekung lykra for Aunty Juita. While that Aunty Juita was actually touch my chin, b%%%% and my hand. Wahh.... my celebrity aunty was actually TOUCH me, you know. Hehe. Then we went to shop around Kota and finally found that telekung. After that, they went drinking coconut water at the stall nearby. After that, we return home. Tok solat and they went out again to return Aunty Juita stuff while me and Kakyong just stayed home. Then, I breaking my fast with chicken rice. After magrib, we went out for their dinner at stall nearby mosque. We ate kerang and etc. After that we went Pasar Karat.

8th Syawal -  Im not fasting today. In the morning at 10 AM we went ECONSAVE. Tok was buying ketam and etc. Drop Aunty Juita at Plaza Kota. Sending Tok back to house to prepare for lunch and went back to Plaza Kota to pick up Aunty Juita. Then we went KIPMART. Then we headed back to Tok's house for lunch. Uncle Pacai and Aunty Juita left Tok's house in the evening after chit chating with Umi Mah. At night, we went to marhaban at 3 house nearby.

9th Syawal - Fasting. Out with Tok and Kakyong to buy gold. Breaking fast with burger. At night, went to marhaban.

10th Syawal - Fasting. At night, we went to marhaban.

11th Syawal - In the morning, follow Tok, Kakyong and Mak Jah to Pasar. Suddenly, I fainted and we went back to Tok's house. At night, we went to marhaban.

12th Syawal - At night, marhaban at Tok's house.

13th Syawal - Went JB with Tok and Kakyong for wedding invitation. After we return home, Ayah Long, Ibu, Nazrin and Hana was at Tok's house. At night, we having dinner at Periuk Besar. Tok was sick.

14th Syawal - Ayah Long and etc left Tok's house in the evening. Tok was sick.

15th Syawal - At evening, went to Pasar nearby. At night, went to last marhaban.

16th Syawal - In the morning, having breakfast at the stall. Tok was prepared us a sandwich. Umi Mah cried when knowing me and Kakyong will left Tok's house today.