:'(

Run away in shock and pain out of nowhere..

Taylor Swift - Mean

ramai orang tanya "wana, kemana menghilang?"

All of sudden, she dead :(

They all went out when I reached home. I've been waiting for m##, to guide me on physic test for tomorrow. All of a sudden, late in evening. There's a ring on telephone. Bibik answered it. Ahmad started crying. I was in my room wondering why? And where had they been in this late hour? I'm feeling fright to know. They bringing a bad news, that she was dead. How could the hospital send her away. It must be a curse. This is fate. Just walk home, to hope and pray. I wish I could see her after SPM. But I just meet her dead body yesterday, sitting beside her and reading Yasin with my brother. I miss her dearly, this I do. They started blaming each other, fighting about money and etc. Family crisis still goes on. If today is so bad, tomorrow will be worse. I don’t know what I did to face the war tomorrow.

But still, it’s hard to believe its true.
(*just trying to be happy and strong.)

~out, SPM

Eid Mubarak 2011

Raya ni aku tak raya :(
tok sakit kat Johor

Family semua balik Johor, 

macam biasa aku kena tinggal rumah sorang2 lagi
macam orang gila =.=
kalau boleh aku NAK IKUT.
NAK IKUT!
NAK IKUT!
NAK IKUT!
tapi kakak nasihatkan 'takpayah'
so, tinggal lah.

(p/s: just ignore me! K Bye.)

Larian 1 Murid 1 Sukan 1 Malaysia

Yesterday I've being scolded just because of the sport shoes issue. I don't know what come over me but I really don't like it. I cant sleep at night. I hope I'm happy to go trough today. 

This is how the days goes :

pukul5 buat air. Amad turun bawah amek tawel tiba2 pastu mandi. minum. naik atas. siap2 kelam kabut kemas barang. naik kereta. terlupa pakai satu benda. patah balik. pakai benda tu. naik kereta. a**h berhenti dekat depan pejabat pos. Amad amek baju. jalan dengan a**h pegi padang Esplanade. Subahanaallah. tak penah aku ade dalam situasi macam ni. aku suka. rase exited gila. orang ramai macam nak berperang. sampai padang a**h pegi tempat lain. tinggal aku sorang. pusing2 cari group convent. lalu depan. jumpa Syndee. cari group convent sama2. jalan2 da jumpa. amek reben dekat Cik Mas. nak gulung2. Hawa tolong pegang kan. pastu dia tolong ikat kan. pastu nak tampal nombor dekat perut. bla bla bla. countdown same2. mula lari dengan Hawa. tamat lari dengan Hawa jugak. nampak Ain Madiha main kompang. dengar 'U Mobile' membebel. bersama Sharifah. jumpa mak Rita dan Rita. salam2. Rita dan Natasha join aerobik atas pentas. amek makanan. tunggu cabutan bertuah. tak dapat. ikot Hawa dan Rita masok khemah K.E cari orang. Sharifah takot nak masok. jalan2 tepi khemah. dapat roti free. jalan2. Hawa jumpa Salman. muka dia ada warna. Sharifah ajak tengok pertandingan sorak. DIA tegor. muka dia pon ada warna. pegi tengok sorak dengan Sharifah. berdiri lama2. turn Convent last. Convent menang sorak untuk kategeri perempuan. SMDB menang untuk kategeri lelaki. pastu aku jalan sorang2. terjumpa Sheshe dan Adila. cakap best la menang. dia pelok aku. tepon u** suroh amekkan. jalan sorang2 sampai kat tennis court. tunggu jap. u** sampai. naik keta. kena marah lagi. dia tanya nape tak jalan kaki balik uma je? *kalo tak bole amek cakap jela. aku bole jalan kaki sendiri. aku diam je. sampai rumah spoil mood aku habis. aku lupa aku happy ke tak tadi. 

Pesta Ria TMGS

Imagine 45 minutes lining up along the corridor just to enter the hunted house. Trust me, these thing can easily sucked up the 'i am handsome' confidence straight out of you. There are some people who incharge treat people like a bullshit. The customer was being scolded from getting too crowded along the entrance. They just wont give your money back once touch the entrance paper even you didn't enter yet. Hellllooo. it just a small piece of paper that value for nothing. These people must been forgot about the 'customer always rite' rite? 

The hunted house was great. I'm the back person in the line. It seriously shock me when the gost keep scaring me from my back, and it involuntary action me to just scream like hell. It embracing me then when I just realize that I was hug Rita from her back along the way. When it just comes to exit, I just think that 'uh? why I hug her? what an earth am I doing?'. Then, I quickly put my hand off from her. Lucikly, no one saw that. hihi:p

This is the day that I saw a lot of my old buddies. I feel composed of each remembered name. But I am here just pretending not to know them. Time changes and they know damn as well. I dont even think they remember me since I slip away. But just face it. The worse nightmare was over. *sedar ape yang aku dapat bila dah hilang :(

Anyway, tenggs for today. Today was great coz I was enjoying the bites even it been for a while moment with two of her. 

fine

Before this blog starting to look dead, I'd better post something. The face of another day. Life getting better and I'm getting so fine :) with stable electron arrangement. Thanks God. I love you more.

Mom! I will succeed and I will put you out of your misery. There will only be bright days ahead. Have in faith in me! So, how are you going to be succeed anyways? Designer! World's top fashion designer! Stop being foolish, will you? :P I want to be a doctor. Not a designer. The thing that I want to tell here is do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth? I think it was "A whole lot of truthful truth that". 

Failed was the unforgiving to accept from dear parent. I rather do anything to avoid this.  I might as well make my own exam result, plus A's :P But the problem is I dont really understand what the hell i've been learning this month , huh. 

The reality world has kept me busy and awaaaaaay busy to spend time writing useless shits. So, the bottomline, im busy. 

I WANT 9A+ SO BADLY :(

wah!! dia pelok aku dohh..

Tadi ada program kecermerlangan tingkatan5. Dia tabole datang sebenanya tapi dia datang jugak.


2.40 pm berator tepi Dewan Konsert. Maksuk Dewan. Nyanyi lagu negaraku dan negeri perak. Duduk. Pn Rahimah berucap. Perasmian. Bangun. Duduk. Pn Ang berucap. Tetamu berucap.Cikgu berikra. Ibu bapa berikra. Kite orang berikra. Jerit "kami boleh!!". Duduk.


Masa nak semat lencana, aku salam dia. Pastu dia pinkan lencana. Sambil tu aku senyum2 je macam kerang busuk. Then aku salam dia lagi. Pastu aku saje je nak cakap "peluk?". Tiba2 dia peluk aku. Aku terkejut. Sebelum ni aku tak pena peluk dia. Tiba2 aku rasa macam nak nangis. *cheh, perlu ke? haha. Tapi aku tahan je. Lama betol aku tak nangis kan?


Masa time menjamu selera. Dia nak makan sebenarnya tapi sebab aku ada tusyen Bio kejap lagi dia tak jadi. Kita org terus balik. Aku kelam kabut nak siap pegi tusyen Bio. 


Mase nak dekat balik Sir aja pasal jenis2 glands. Pastu dia tanya macam mana ibu susuan boleh menyusukan anak? Dan dari mana dia dapat susu? Cara dia, dia amek injection untuk satu glands(aku lupa nama glands tu) ni bertindak menghasilkan susu. Glands ni pulak terletak di dalam memmery glands. Kitaorang tanya 'memmery glands' tu ape? Dia diam je, tak jawab. Pastu dia tulis perkataan 'MEMMERY GLANDS' dalam kurungan 'female brest'. haha. semua orang gelak. budak laki yang ketawa lebih2. Sir buat muka be'ngang. Sir cakap "cuba la open minded siket. kamu ni dah la amek science stream. benda ni benda untuk belaja bukan untuk jadi bahan lawak. kalau kamu nak lawak2 tak payah la amek Bio. amek je LP. blablabla..." pastu dia suruh la jadi open minded sikit untuk terima pelajaran. pastu dia cakap pasal pelajar cemerlang punya atitude la ubah sikap jadi matured sikit la dan lain2 lagi. Lastly dia ingatkan yang SPM lagi 7 bulan. Dia cakap "kamu pura-pura jadi matang selama 7 bulan pun tape. untuk SPM. lepastu kalau nak nakal balik. nakal la." :P