truth be told

it was really awkward when my crush text me and told me that he really likes me. REALLY? so do i. omg, i had my crush on :) Hell yeah, on who?


but daamn with a double 'a'. im so sleepy by that fucking late night time and i dont know wtf im texting back to him. i thought it just gonna be a dream. then, i wake up and read the last send message. soooo daamn daamn reckless, i send 3 message by that time. there just a few makeup fact mistake. (the truth, there was no guy i reject because there was no guy anyway *except my ex.) well, im an anti social person for some reason. who the fuck will fall in love with me, rite?


Okay, i guess that enough. forget about it. just wait and see. i got better stuff to do. im not going to express feeling more. it just really daamn hard word to say and it soo daamn fucking embarrass me. KBYE :)

long last with no update

A lot of thing happen. i mean since im gone. it is just so.. em.. never mine.. I don't used re-reading my last chapter of life to start the new one. So, dont fuckin' think im gonna write a post about it. YOLO. Lets just move on.

:'(

Run away in shock and pain out of nowhere..

Taylor Swift - Mean

ramai orang tanya "wana, kemana menghilang?"

All of sudden, she dead :(

They all went out when I reached home. I've been waiting for m##, to guide me on physic test for tomorrow. All of a sudden, late in evening. There's a ring on telephone. Bibik answered it. Ahmad started crying. I was in my room wondering why? And where had they been in this late hour? I'm feeling fright to know. They bringing a bad news, that she was dead. How could the hospital send her away. It must be a curse. This is fate. Just walk home, to hope and pray. I wish I could see her after SPM. But I just meet her dead body yesterday, sitting beside her and reading Yasin with my brother. I miss her dearly, this I do. They started blaming each other, fighting about money and etc. Family crisis still goes on. If today is so bad, tomorrow will be worse. I don’t know what I did to face the war tomorrow.

But still, it’s hard to believe its true.
(*just trying to be happy and strong.)

~out, SPM

Eid Mubarak 2011

Raya ni aku tak raya :(
tok sakit kat Johor

Family semua balik Johor, 

macam biasa aku kena tinggal rumah sorang2 lagi
macam orang gila =.=
kalau boleh aku NAK IKUT.
NAK IKUT!
NAK IKUT!
NAK IKUT!
tapi kakak nasihatkan 'takpayah'
so, tinggal lah.

(p/s: just ignore me! K Bye.)

Larian 1 Murid 1 Sukan 1 Malaysia

Yesterday I've being scolded just because of the sport shoes issue. I don't know what come over me but I really don't like it. I cant sleep at night. I hope I'm happy to go trough today. 

This is how the days goes :

pukul5 buat air. Amad turun bawah amek tawel tiba2 pastu mandi. minum. naik atas. siap2 kelam kabut kemas barang. naik kereta. terlupa pakai satu benda. patah balik. pakai benda tu. naik kereta. a**h berhenti dekat depan pejabat pos. Amad amek baju. jalan dengan a**h pegi padang Esplanade. Subahanaallah. tak penah aku ade dalam situasi macam ni. aku suka. rase exited gila. orang ramai macam nak berperang. sampai padang a**h pegi tempat lain. tinggal aku sorang. pusing2 cari group convent. lalu depan. jumpa Syndee. cari group convent sama2. jalan2 da jumpa. amek reben dekat Cik Mas. nak gulung2. Hawa tolong pegang kan. pastu dia tolong ikat kan. pastu nak tampal nombor dekat perut. bla bla bla. countdown same2. mula lari dengan Hawa. tamat lari dengan Hawa jugak. nampak Ain Madiha main kompang. dengar 'U Mobile' membebel. bersama Sharifah. jumpa mak Rita dan Rita. salam2. Rita dan Natasha join aerobik atas pentas. amek makanan. tunggu cabutan bertuah. tak dapat. ikot Hawa dan Rita masok khemah K.E cari orang. Sharifah takot nak masok. jalan2 tepi khemah. dapat roti free. jalan2. Hawa jumpa Salman. muka dia ada warna. Sharifah ajak tengok pertandingan sorak. DIA tegor. muka dia pon ada warna. pegi tengok sorak dengan Sharifah. berdiri lama2. turn Convent last. Convent menang sorak untuk kategeri perempuan. SMDB menang untuk kategeri lelaki. pastu aku jalan sorang2. terjumpa Sheshe dan Adila. cakap best la menang. dia pelok aku. tepon u** suroh amekkan. jalan sorang2 sampai kat tennis court. tunggu jap. u** sampai. naik keta. kena marah lagi. dia tanya nape tak jalan kaki balik uma je? *kalo tak bole amek cakap jela. aku bole jalan kaki sendiri. aku diam je. sampai rumah spoil mood aku habis. aku lupa aku happy ke tak tadi. 

Pesta Ria TMGS

Imagine 45 minutes lining up along the corridor just to enter the hunted house. Trust me, these thing can easily sucked up the 'i am handsome' confidence straight out of you. There are some people who incharge treat people like a bullshit. The customer was being scolded from getting too crowded along the entrance. They just wont give your money back once touch the entrance paper even you didn't enter yet. Hellllooo. it just a small piece of paper that value for nothing. These people must been forgot about the 'customer always rite' rite? 

The hunted house was great. I'm the back person in the line. It seriously shock me when the gost keep scaring me from my back, and it involuntary action me to just scream like hell. It embracing me then when I just realize that I was hug Rita from her back along the way. When it just comes to exit, I just think that 'uh? why I hug her? what an earth am I doing?'. Then, I quickly put my hand off from her. Lucikly, no one saw that. hihi:p

This is the day that I saw a lot of my old buddies. I feel composed of each remembered name. But I am here just pretending not to know them. Time changes and they know damn as well. I dont even think they remember me since I slip away. But just face it. The worse nightmare was over. *sedar ape yang aku dapat bila dah hilang :(

Anyway, tenggs for today. Today was great coz I was enjoying the bites even it been for a while moment with two of her.